i dont believe how hard this is, how much harder it's going to get.

i'm really struggling to stay positive.

everything is just so overwhelming. there's so much that needs to be done yet so little progress.

ahh.

hold on. it'll be okay. right?

People are far too hasty to judge or say nasty things. Yet, there are always two sides to a story, and until you have heard both, ask yourself what right do you have to judge?

I know I haven't done anything to earn your respect. In fact, I've probably done things that have caused you to lose any respect you ever had for me. There's no denial that I have done a lot of stupid things, but I do know that I have learnt from them.

But sometimes, it doesn't matter what others think or say. Sometimes, you don't need to justify anything to anyone. It's beyond reputation and rumours, just down to what I believe and know as truth.

That's what matters. 

Integrity +

mum and dad come home today !  

it's been a fun 2 weeks and i really appreciate everyone ive spent it with that made it so worthwhile. domestic violence episodes, hotels, eating enough dumplings for the rest of my life, .......... studying ha

so currently :

i am looking forward to... 

home cooked meals instead of a kiwifruit or a packet of honeysoy chicken chips for dinner ahaha

daddy to come home and wash the clothes so ill actually have clothes to wear

i wont ever again...

leave food sitting there for 2 weeks straight to prevent vomit inducing mould farms growing

let the dishes sit there for 2 weeks and then have to wash like 24 cups hahaha

i learnt...

nerds shouldnt try to party LOLOL "stick to heinemenn" -jon  AHAHA

dont trust ben to go grocery shopping or all you'll get is mint slices and kfc

11 days until my french oral .....

merde.

there are so many things i want to say to you but i dont know how.

what on earth were you thinking?

i dont know either.

~june 20

i like stalking msn names ..

didnt wanna want you, didnt wanna need you so bad, 

didnt want to wake up and find that i was falling so fast

i just thought if i didn't say it out loud it wouldn't be true

you'll always be my thunder

you pulled me in, but that cord went slack

it's not faith if you use your eyes

i think that its time that you made it clear

down these jagged streets and into my head

fragments of their minds for all to see... 

yet sometimes the one person whose supposed to notice, doesnt.

~ july 27